For the last 300 days or so i have been counting down days, marking calenders and preparing myself for the day i become a woman. June 1, 1989 at 5:36 am and a shocking 6 lbs 3 oz. I was Born it has only taken 21 years for me to get here.. what a shame i feel like crap i have spent 21 years of my life to only get HERE? I work Full time, Go to school part Time, and try to make enough money to pay my bills and still have a somewhat enjoyable life.. when does this get easier? never my mom says. lovely just lovely 10 years from now i swear if i am not married ill be pissed.. really pissed. However i do have a nice weekend planned for my birthday.. Its a tuesday sadly but a majority of my friends will be home so it shouldn’t be soo bad. But then again not everyone is twenty one (Brie and Jason) Sheesh Hurry Up guys. That night i am eating dinner at P.F Changs ( my favorite) and supporting the gambling association later that week i have lunch dates and such.. but that weekend i am going to a phillies game on friday (with meg and jimmers) and then that saturday ill leave for NY to see my brother and susan.. Im looking forward to getting out of town for a day.. it will be a relief to not see South jersey  no offense) I hope that over the next year i grow as a person, i want to mature and really get to know myself. I have been so happy this year making new friends and re connecting with old ones but i feel like my life is still incomplete. I wish i went away to college, maybe i would be happier.. then again im happy that i have the people in my life that i do and i wouldn’t change it for the world.. P.S Got accepted to Stockton. WOOT. and i am going back to full time in the Fall. im excited im ready to get this shit done, even though my degree wil be pointless. ha… no not HA. im scared and fucked if this shit with the no teaching jobs does not work itself out… 

Oh well. Time for bed. I need to somehow fit studying in with my 40 hours of work this week.. Here is a balloon.